End of portal

its been a wonderful 5-6 years. using this portal for sharing, endless whinning, learning and new discoveries.

will miss doing this.... readers thank you for your support all this years..

Being in Control

I used to think life is everything that comes as you expect, happens and leaves as you expect it to be.

Well, a few random incidents proved me wrong:

- Divorce among the impossible.
- My job which i initially thought was a nightmare
- What I want

The key thing towards where you are always lies at where you wish to be.
I have been taking it too slow to decide. And I realise i have to make it quick as time waits for no man. Be it because things that will not last forever -> good health, company, opportunties.

I'm learning to see why things are happening.
Why my current company instead of a Big MNC with all things ticking down?
Why THIS instead of hardcore engineering?
( But that doesnt mean i'm not giving up engineering okay? My blood and perk for engineering still persist high as ever!!! )

Seriously, we dont have absolute control of the many things... like the Massive earthquake in Japan.. One after another. Wish I'l give some to the needy once situation allows. These are the times you musnt say 'things can wait'.

More over, I used to wonder. Why am I getting this? (job scope ) but i began to fill. its because its the only void to bring me to the next step. The exact thing i need before i can move forward! And really, being able to be shortlisted TOO is something beyond my control :). So yeah, i wont complain.. At All!
As for my brother who unable to see why and kept asking me
" why work so hard for your boss? Its not like you are getting anything out from the money he makes end of the day!!"

Think again. Think- why does someone works Hard still... knowing the fact that monaterily theres no obvious benefit?
We all focus so much on whats obvious and short term. we forget sitting back and look at the bigger picture makes all the difference.
Sometimes, its best to sit back and plan than to grab first. True though, that monaterily, is very tempting. I myself, as a human being wont say i dread seeing the figures i can potentially make from my core line.

But at the end of the day, will my life be fulfilling? throwing away a good opportunity? And is my situation as bad as it seems? well, Not exactly. and theres nothing good out of it to bullshit :P

So, learn to see the two sides of things. we might not get control on everything. But we can always make good and get the best out of the situation we are in.
Always.

I feel blessed this time. Because I no longer have to trade off between studies, money and sleeping time like i used to.
Belief me, if you think my life seems moderate. It has improved and things will go well as long as i do my fair share in working on it!

One thing too. Others dont get great offer out of the sky. Everyone has an equal share of hardwork. Learn to understand that consideration and hardwork means everything.

The right mind anyone?

I was worried for a long long time. Looking for my way out for the ordeals. I have been worrying.. what happens if others have refuse to see, or situation goes beyond your control?
It really did made me a whole lot wiser. filling almost everything, every question that i can ever have for the pass 20 years! The peaceful solution has been in me. Yes. because i have already done whats right. though not said/expressed/ and communicated, the opportunity wasnt there. and once it was, i did my part.

But at times, waiting at one corner to make one see the real point. It can only come out in 2 outcome..
your own time wasted, and he/she wont see it still.. because for the other party, winning is more important..
because of concept of the following below:

"When i am at the upper hand.. being proved that my perception is right or wrong isnt a priority. Most importantly, i found someone i have which shows i Don't need you."


Now. You may think the purpose of this post it to whine on it. But guess again. I'm just trying to point out what & why people no longer get along. Be it a spouse, a parent, a friend, an acquaintance, or even your employee.

What i just say above simple is a mere random example. and believe me. it's absolute bullshit for me to say " no. I've never encounter being the person misunderstood or the one misunderstanding other party in this way "

None of us are excluded of making mistakes, but as we grow older, we know some things are mistakes and the reconcillation moments to make things right is there.. You can start predicting,how the flow might start going. But it is because THEN you remember that you will be proven wrong, that Now you Don't wish to be in it..

Sit back, take a good view on the whole picture. Does it matter to be proven wrong during times you Don't get anything positive in return? Earning/winning upfront. Has it been always So important? Is that how your spouse/ friends/ employee is worth?

Perhaps it isnt a good bargain. Perhaps an extra plus thing that comes into your life overrides what people that doesnt seem to offer much then that we've lived through during the days that we are No one.

My lengthy elaboration puts no purpose in a complain. But before you lay something to rest,6 feet underground.
Think if its worth it. think that have you really asked the right questions.
I've done my best ( and i've explored ALL possibilities to communicate ).

People who havent fight the battle to live, has no right to give up and say he wished to die.

If you Did die with full of life's reqrets end of the day, perhaps you deserve to after all- simply out of not trying hard enough.

I'm not here to challenge anyone's ego. I'm sure if you read in between the lines, i am trying to express this in a way that it still falls as something childish. We may not wish to admit it- and the saying goes " maturity doesnt come with age"

"How much of what we do is considered Right?"

"Do we Consider We handle this the Mature way Or simply we are good enough to handle everything Maturely by heart?"

The answer is obvious but please, i dont cover all possibilities. I am no God and I'm just here to share. I dont know whose mind i may have opened- or never. But I just wish to let this world knows something i had a thought that i wished to share :)



Searchin My soul

I've been down this road walkin' the line
That's painted by pride
And I have made mistakes in my life
That I just can't hide

Oh I believe I am ready for what love has to bring
Got myself together, now I'm ready to sing

I've been searchin' my soul tonight
I know there's so much more to life
Now I know I can shine a light
To find my way back home

One by one, the chains around me unwind
Every day now I feel that I can leave those years behind

Oh I've been thinking of you for a long time
There's a side of my life where I've been blind and so...

I've been searchin' my soul tonight
I know there's so much more to life
Now I know I can shine a light
Everything gonna be alright
I've been searchin' my soul tonight
Don't wanna be alone in life
Now I know I can shine a light
To find my way back home
Baby I been holding back now my whole life
I've decided to move on now
Gonna leave all my worries behind

Oh I belive I am ready for what love has to give
Got myself together now I'm ready to live

I've been searchin' my soul tonight
I know there's so much more to life
Now I know I can shine a light
Everything gonna be alright
I've been searchin' my soul tonight
Don't wanna be alone in my life
Now I know I can shine a light
To find my way back home

When we speak of perfection

I Agree..

That they said you are funny , charming, and a complete gentleman. =)

Haha. you fall into the 'perfect' guy category that no one thinks you exist.
Now just go on an create more fairy tale among my colleagues XD so that they are in dreamland at all times LOL.

De Constipate

Yeay! Finally there is mobility in the Joint Venture project ^^..

I was begining to get worried if both parties are gonna start talking in bad terms... gotta get my future-even-busier-butt out from my couch d.. from taking airplane, must switch to private jet!!

Andrew's precious words of guidance aint down the drain after all. Looking forward to a better kickstart... with less HooHaas.... :P

Two sides of a coin

I have been wondering on my decisions.. It doesnt really matter now.
I used to think that it is wrong for others to make choices between the ones you care.

But the way i see it, for others to be manipulative over the situation just so that the guilt of them putting you away is less, its just the same.
Its just like saying
" oh, i am not wrong in not getting information A because i didnt hear it"
SItuation: you literally DIDN't hear it because at the time it was spoken, you deliberately cover your ears and close your eyes.

Life isn't always fair and there are ways to make things right for you in your own way. I found mine. and you should start on yours from now.
No wonder, mistakes never seem to be from your side and this is how you made it to be. In the society, i think they call this with the name " Manipulation ".

Due to this, i realised i am a far more simple person than I thought i am. Peace and happiness... priceless. and as for your multiple scandals, two timing and all that ... well... as a friend, i kept my integrity ( after all, im never as anywhere close as manipulative as you and your ex too :P ... now see? theres answer towards everything. and you used to wonder why you gotten itu tahi rite )

Just fart your mistakes away XD I forgive u anyway already. I didnt blow off your lie and blunder about the FB thingy. See? Im such a great friend XD

Commitment

Chatted with Lipas today regarding newfound priorities.

More precisely, what happens when the day where we have to make options. Time management to be spend on what and whom and fraction of it?
Life isnt about squeaky clean obvious options. There Will be time we have to make Trade off decisions!

Many seem to have a simplified version, and the options broaden as we grows older. Some arent as flexible as you think it is anymore. It involves giving up important things in your life. More time for yourself equals less time for others. You hardly get to achieve with both ends meet with positive response!
There will be the time we have to kiss our freedom goodbye. But we gained perhaps more intellectual/ career advancement opportunity.

Many who havent face this side of life will think they can achieve the impossible. Chances are, you'l loose both ends altogether along with compromising your health.
Options in life are usually inevitable. We'l Have to make them when we meet them.
I was worried for a while about coping the friendship part.. But then again, when you've done your best you could, nothing should cause / bother you. =)

A simple quote to share..which i don't know who originally quoted it.


"True friendship isn't being inseparable, it's being separated and nothing changes"